Love & Gratitude
To Love My Father is to Love His son
As soon as I typed those words this morning I felt the inspiration to express myself. It has been through the practice of the daily lessons that brought to me the clarity that defensively was how I lived. Being honest with myself I started recognizing I never really understood why this was so because it was natural in my coping. The crisp and clear results as a healing experience is noticing this in my day to day thoughts and then blamelessly and shamelessly correcting myself continuously. Reminding myself this isn't about right and wrong any more! I simply want transformation. Gentle forgiveness instead of defensive reasons and excuses. I want to unlearn being defensive and feeling the need to protect myself from what was never true. A Course in Miracles is the reource that showed me I loved God and felt connected and am being "kind and loving" but I am still defending and attacking myself against my brother for many illusive reasons, so that I began to teach myself to let go of these patters and actually experience there is nothing to fear in my daily living. I don't want to hurt my self nor attack my brother any more. This requires continuously reminding myself all I want is God' plan for God's salvation, and that is all I want.
Repeating the lessons and projecting the words, but not accepting the words for myself can become like "defenses" and simply delay my own real healing. We have to be vigilant with ourself. Of course we can tell by our own experience and make our own decisions for what we want to experience. God only offers us freedom and the power of decision is our own. Thank you for continuously loving and supporting me in our healing journey. I am lost without you! Jeannine
