Mystical Everlasting Arms

Awakening is difficult for me to explain.  Although I still try!  Today I see it as being a most natural process that was happening within me but as it was happening I honestly had no clue!   And as it turned out I realized I was not the human being I thought I was.   I am  a beloved child of God, as we all are in reality!

My awakening probably began 25 years or so ago to begin in an idea of a "story."   I know the term now, but early on I didn't understand anything, to be honest!  

So,  I just noticed my life was different, like I couldn't accept myself anymore, meaning like I was just questioning everything and feeling like much misery but also didn't want to accept the miserableness nor the advise I was hearing about what to do for myself about it.  

I still can't recall any specific incident about awakening,  but  more of a gradualness.  And with, say self seeking and recognsizing  healing  within myself, this too, gradually became more identifiable to me.  To say, ok, now I see! Yes!  

Communication with words continues to be challenging for me in healing because I recognize what I would call a dense and twisted consciousness that was once my own.  Misperception is another term for human consciousness. So I picked up new understanding and terms along the way in healing but I still work to let them all go becauuse it is really just the experience of undoing that I want to have.  Not hanging onto all the reasons.  But forgiving everything because none of it matters.  God has a perfect plan of salvation for me and for you.  This plan will mystically undo  false acceptance of the meaningless in individual experience.  Of course also needs my dedication and acceptance when it occurs to me.  

We are all in this process continuously.    God' is always communicating with us and we are learning to be in touch with God is what became most apparent to me.  Mystically apparent.  Somehow I was following way in some way.  But nothing felt specific.  Thinking about it now the word mystical seems to fit comfortably!   Today,  I am in the experience of life, of happiness that I never knew was even possible.  My certainty is  this is  because of God establishment, God's plan for Salvation.  Which is  a universal offering to every individual to accept in their own unique resurrection experience.  Which is life and not death by the way!  He is risen, Indeed!

Now feeling like I recognize my own healing and expansion because only truth is true.  It is my unique individual experience.  I see how it is only mine in the actual doing of it.  

Today I feel a certainty that I am able to be a means of peaceful support to my brother.  God is the healing presence and I feel embraced within it no matter where I go or what I do.  Every connection is a blessed encounter.    God is never cruel.   Nor is my brother cruel! Nor am I!  God freely gives to us, continuously.

Myself felt very confused and alone in my awakening for a long period of time  I didn't feel I could relate to anyone any more. My experience was there wasn't any satisfactory consolement external to me that I could accept for myself any longer.   

Maybe you identify with what I am saying and just want to know you are not alone.  Ir is really ok not to understand but to let it happen in your own following of your experience to find peace within yourself!  Today,  I only desire to be truly helpful and make myself available to my brother.  So I can be a listening ear or like a quiet companion along the way.

God's peace is a form of comfort always extending itself in the present moment.   So if you feel you want to make contact with me, please do.   You are never alone.  God goes with you and me whereever we go!   God bless us each and every one!

I am so very grateful for all the discoveries I continually make through creating with music and art and technology. As well as with the  simple dailyness that healingly surrounds me.  Conitinually applying the idea  that judgement isn't necessasry but healing myself is, to let myself see the valuelessness of what I was clinging to and how I truly only limit myself. 

So felt like expressing myself in the idea of my brushing of the faded blossoms and being on a journey of forgiveness. Peace to you this day and always! Love,  Jeannine