In the begining I think what inspired me was actually my inner feelings of dissatisfaction which now I can see my noticing was my recognition to inquire even though I didn't understand "why" and tried to attach reasons to it. Today it is the same really and I've experienced more so that changes everything. Staying awake in my belief that God's plan for salvation works and I have no more desire for my ideas of mortal (temporal) harmonious or unharmonious living for myself. My want is to know myself in wholeness as God intended. I want my forgiveness to be complete for myself and for my brother. So I have no defintion or specific determination but joy peace and love in no opposite is God's plan for salvation. And the right alignment is certianly possible is my belief. Therefore, in my inner desire I follow myself to discover.
The beauty of forgiveness is that I never really had to know all the things that I once thought were necessary. My ideas simply weren't true. And it is a relief to me just to accept this and let my old habits and ideas go. I learned I can always change my mind through my daily practice with A Course In Miracles that has been life giving freedom for me. I am so deeply grateful and I just keep wanting to discover more.
The power of decision is my own always and I only want my proper alignment in God's creation, not to become bitter and go back to my old ideas of limitation and lack and death or bound by an idea of a paradox. I feel this within my self and faithfully take the steps to follow myself. Thank you for your question! And thank you for your love and support always. Jeanniine