Cheery Galaxee

During a spiritual recovery group meeting today and my considering guilt I shared the word moralholic.  This is a word that had come to me earlier at some point.    I attend this meeting in the idea of being a recovering mortalholic. simply as another, say, step in undoing who I thought I was to discover the real me in Christ.   Recognizing I am not any different than my brother although we hold different beliefs about ourself individually.  Teaching myself I can trust myself to participate actively and share openly in new ways as I feel to do so.  So I am grateful to engage in this opportunity to release who I once wasn't!     Just welcoming sharing and allowing healing to happen.  Everyone is always welcome in the power of their own decision to attend.   

So my sharing today was that I gave up my ideas of morals that I had adopted and accepted for myself in my dream of fear.  Accepting now like my natural God integrity is actively present as part of my beingness.  This is all I want for myself.  And this is all that is actively present in my brother as well.   My total reliance is on God.   

It's like through forgiveness I somehow lost my taste for the morals, just like I lost my taste for alcohol.  In my former experience alcohol was something I used to function with as daily living.  Really not wanting to see it on any type of list at all but also hearing and reading many of the travels surrounding it.  So in my own travels somewhere I lost my taste for feeling guilty and shameful about my list of morals that I recognized kept me in a cycle of misery.    

I continue to want to be at peace within myself and I never felt peace with guilt and shame.  (Or self pity, or ...on and on).  So it is like really accepting this for myself  my taste buds changed!  

Well, then, another fun idea came to me today being inspired to look up the word holic in an AI search engine.  When I typed it out and looked at it I saw within the spelling, an abbreviation.  My translation of it is ~ whole I see.  So this seemed really creative to me so I wanted to share it too.  Really, I don't want specific meanings for anything any more and I love recognizing I really don't need them.   So just happy to share a bit of my story along the way.  Maybe I'll see you in  A Way Out meeting one day.  I know from my own experience you are always welcome just like I am.